Happy me? Awesome me!

So as you might have guessed I am happy right now.

Yes. Very happy I am!

Why? Lots of good reasons!

Skittles

A (finally!) awesome looking and fabulously working Project! =D

Music that is taking me higher! 

3am is something I tell you! I somehow end up blogging at this time all the time. 

So there are things I have wanted to say for quite sometime. For thoughts that I wanted to write an entire post about but couldnt. Here they are.

Osama Dead.
No terrorrism is not dead. I still have my doubts. The entirely different take on 9/11 makes me wonder if what we see is really what it is. I highly doubt it.

Gadaffi's grandchildren dead.
Where is UN now? Whatever happened to Human Rights? Whatever happened to the media? Werent they supposed to report more on how could NATO take such a decision to put the lives of innocent civilians and children(for crying out loud!) at risk. Even though  I m completely for the execution of Gaddafi I am not ok with innocent lives being taken. He got away so in the end it was all for nothing! Never mind the fact that even if he was to die in that attack it still isnt ok for innocent people to die. At this point I cant help but ask the question. .So if both ways innocent lives are being taken, what is the difference between Gaddafi and NATO?

Not much.

Fairytales do come true!
Yes. I am still awwed by the Royal Wedding! It was such a fairy tale. Everything about the wedding was soo fairytale. Finally a commoner in the Royal Family. A fresh breeze in the otherwise stale monarchy.

Well, this is it for now. I m tired and  I need sleep so I m crashing. 

Will be back with more awesomeness for next time!

Be happy. Look for the Happiness and you shall finds it! =D

Night!

My new love!

One little Quickie post!

Got a class at 2.

Weather update for today- Its abso-freakin-lutely hot AND humid. I wish the weather could be the way it is when it is just about to rain. When the winds blow. The sky is dark. And there is an unspoken silence in the air.
I love sunshine. I absolutely do but all sunshine makes a desert and in this case a cranky, sticky, irritable me! Not good for this world. Trust me.

Ok so getting back to the subject of this post.

My new love. Thievery Corporation.

She   l.o.v.e.s    them! They take me to another world.

Anyway, time to go!

Ta!

Mediocrity

Mediocre- Of only ordinary or moderate quality; neither good nor bad.

Mediocrity. A word so dark and void. A black hole which seems to suck the creativity out of a person.A deprivation of something better that could have been. A feeling of having something done yet accomplished nothing.

Strange though inn'it?! As Science continues to advance we, humans, are getting so accustomed to going round and round in a circle without questioning it even once. Makes me think at times whether we even realize that we are slowly getting drowned in it.

Instead of welcoming a new idea we start questioning it. Even worse, we start killing it. Our society in general is becoming more and more mundane by the day.It seems like we are so comfortable following rules which hold no meaning (anymore?) Doing something because the masses are doing it seems to be the new trend. Never mind the fact that the one who started the notion doesn't remember why he started it in the first place.

We are the masters yet we are the slaves. .

Goodbye. .The saddest word.

Today I bid adieu to something that has given me company for quite some time now. I know I m gonna sound crazy once you find out what it is. but. I kid you not(!) the emotions are strong and I am actually going to miss this special something.

Alias.

In case you are still lost and you have no clue as to what I am talking about I shall solve the mystery. It is a TV series by J.J. Abrams. It took me quite a while to finish the series. After all it was a good 5 seasons which by the way translates into 105 episodes! And I say it from the bottom of my heart that I m going to miss it immensely. I know how this sounds and on top of that I m sure I am being considered the most dramatic person as I write this post and as you read it but I just cant help being emotional about it. Now dont go picturing  me as holding a tissue in my hand as I type this post. It aint THAT dramatic but yes as I said before I will miss this series. A LOT!

Scifi is a genre that fascinates me more than any genre. Intrigues me and tickles my intellect. Alias, for now, happens to be on top of the list. Looking at it from the backstage perspective everything about this series was truly remarkable. The way it was shot. The cinematography. The storyline. The acting of every single character in the script. The background score of almost all the seasons.The different looks that the actors carried off in every episode. And above all the way the show was consistent all the way through. I could go on and on, literally!

As I watched the last episode today it truly did feel like the end of an era (Ok, I do confess that I am being over the top when I say this) I dont know how many times I was truly mesmerized by the show that I went ahead and told my friends that I would love to become a spy. But I don't think I would make a very good Sydney Bristow. In fact, I think I would be a horrible spy. For starters, let me be honest. I don't think I would be able to do those stunts and lets say even if I did,  my wonderful ability to talk 24/7 and my awesome abiltiy to be an open book wouldn't quite cut it for the resume required to be a spy. Period.

So I guess I had to archive this thought of mine. The love I have for Alias just had to be recorded. So yeah, there it is!

The jobless me on a busy day.

I think 3 am is my favorite time of the late night/early morning. My "blogging brains" is very very active at this time. Dont ask me why! After all I am random so this type of behaviour is indeed very much me.

Thinking of random, I have something to share. I shall now post more of these randomnesses. Even though I m supposed to be studying for the sessional tomorrow. This(!) is what I end up doing instead.

It so happens that all my blogging moods come into action at the wrong time. When the sesssionals are far I wonder why I dont feel like doing these crazy things then. 

Ok so at this moment in time this is all I have to say. Actually I m lying. I do have more to say. but(!) time is precious ladies and gentlemen. Atleast as of now- V.E.R.Y!

So I shall go and I shall be back with something more interesting soon.

Ta!

The Blunt one.

Ok so I m blogging for Manipaltalkthenet.

Here is the first post!

http://manipalthetalk.net/2011/04/15/fashion-show-2/

And again. I m writing this post when I m few hours away from the sessionals so again I will have to choose some other time to talk about whats been happening. Soon I shall return with lots of goodies. I promise. But for now this little much is precisely how much I have to say as far as I go in my making my presence felt on this blogspot of mine.

Fear not. I will be back soon!

Ta!

Fragments of me. .

I talk.
I laugh. I cry.
I whine. I smile. I smirk.
I m hyper. I m moody. I m dramatic.
I dream. I dance. I sing. I shriek. I believe. I exaggerate.
I introspect.I feel. I frown. I color. I philosophize. I admire.

I see magic.. Yes, I SEE magic!

3 a.m

I am writing after a very long time.. I wouldn't say that I didn't have anything to say. I always do. At times it was too much and at times it was too little.

Today I write just to write.To fill some space and mention that I m still alive. Maybe a little less than usual but I m still here

I am listening to Norah Jones right now and must I say she is something fantastic. The words. The music. Finely picked. Just right. I have almost got addicted to her. Its funny though how she sings the most soulful songs yet when you watch her live performances she hardly has any expressions on her face. The Blueberry Days with Jude Law did not convince me otherwise either. How can she sing soo deep yet have no expressions on her face. That remains a mystery to me. .

The weather is getting hotter by the day. Its humid and sweaty and so she says that she hates it!

Thinking of the weather brings this thought in my mind about the going around of the "end of the world in 2012."
Is it really true?
What if its turning into a reality. What if tsunami and the earthquake are the opening scenes of the movie that is yet to screen. It better not be.
I have many dreams. Dreams that will take time to realize. The world better not end in 2012. A lot more has to become of me on this place called earth. I got lots more to do.
Some little things. Some big things. And some just plain simple things.
So hopefully things will still be around in 2013 and we will still be here doing the things we do.

Anyhow I must leave. Writing at 3am puts me at a risk of missing the early lab in the morning. Soo .  Short this post has to be. I will be writing more often from now onwards..

Good night!

One of my many loves. .

Ok so this has to be short.
Sessional time is here again and trust me folks I have sooooo much to study.

Anyhow I found this pretty little picture that I just had to put up on my blog. It should have been here long back.

My love for colors is famous across the continents. No kidding! :)

I would love to tell you about my childhood adventures and fantasies with these colorful magical creatures but that shall have to be a story told on another day.

I have a paper tomorrow and seeing how much I have left to do I think right about now would be the perfect time to leave and drown myself into the world of softwares!

Ta!
Until the next time- May the forces be with you!

Night!


ps: Guess whose birthday it is 8 days from now?! :D

The Blueberry! Aah yes the blueberry. .

Some people eat to live and some live to eat.  I am the latter one.

I m a big foodie. Give me good food and I can be the biggest hogger on the planet! 

Well evidently this post is about food and more specifically about a special kind. The kind that makes me go week in my knees- Blueberries!  

If there were two men bending on their knees for me just about to pop the question and one had a diamond ring in his hands and the other one a Blueberry Cheesecake it would be a tough call but I would ever so happily go for the blueberry guy! ;)

Yes. That is the love I have for blueberry. 

The first time I had it, it was magical. No truly it was! No drama. Simply stating the fact. Plain and Simple!. . 

. .And since then me and blueberry cheesecake have been inseparable. I absolutely love it. The first time I had it was in Goa at Brittos( if you havent been to this heavenly place by the Baga Beach you have to go here!!) and Oh! my word! since then there has been no looking back. It is my favorite dessert! 

So yes all you folks out there if you have not tasted blueberry cheesecake its high time you do. You are missing out big time. After all you need to experience all the good things in life and well Blueberry Cheesecake happens to be one of them! :)

My search is on. Is yours?

Everywhere I look around me I see people who are not happy with what they are doing.They dont like it. They dont enjoy it. Period.

Yet we are still here doing it.
Why? Dont ask me.

 The list is long and I dont even want to go there.
 Too freaking complicated and too controversial. .

But then you come across people who just love what they are doing. It is ' the' thing that keeps them alive.

I envy such people.

I am yet to find that something that sets me on fire. When you find that one thing that you just love to do trust me in all adversities life would still be beautiful and if you are stuck in a place where everything is perfect yet you dont belong there no matter what life just would not be perfect no matter how hard you try.

So I guess my search is on for that one magical  moment where I figure out what exactly is that I would love to do even if it means doing it 24/7 without a single penny. Ofcourse I am being a little dramatic here because we all need the financial stability. For how long will we live off our parents after all?!

 I want my moment to come soon. The Secret says ask for it and you shall get it. Well here I am asking for it!. .

I leave you with this one video that pretty much sums up my feelings in better words.
Watch it.

This man  knows how to put it in just the right words and I love him for that and more!

The Hyperactive Madhouse Syndrome.

Yes, I suffer from the hyperactive Madhouse syndrome.

Its a little complicated to explain. In fact, its very complicated. Sometimes at the end of the whole "I am trying to figure this thing out" I end up being more confused. So this is what I make of it and this is how I see it.

I m complicated. I m wierd and I am downright moody to say the least. It takes less than a second to get me flustered up. It takes just about one second to make me happy as well.  Well this happens to the simpler side of me. Then there happens to be this one side that is so freaking complicated that even I dont understand.

Actually you know what I have changed my mind I do not wanna explain my condition.

 I am going through this really hyperactive mood right now so might just as well spill it out and let you figure it out.

I dont know why I am soo hyper right now. I have absolutely no idea and I do not wish to contemplate it either. So yes I m hyper right now. Really hyper. So hyper that I can probably go running around my floor like a mad child. Please do not get freaked out. I m still sane. Well, almost. I love the insane/almost sane  me though. Gosh! I m sure sound like a narcissist. But whatever I have admitted it before and I do so once more that I love myself!

I also happen to be in this particular mood where its like I have to much to say but my brain is not working fast enough and my mouth is not talking fast enough and my hands are not typing fast enough. Ugh. Do not like this feeling. I feel as if I will forget to say something that just had to be said. Like I will miss a train or something and I will watch it leave just as I reach the platform. .

Then there are these times where I will remember something  embarrassing I did from God knows maybe a century ago and then I will sit there saying to myself "Why did I do that!" and then somewhere in the middle of  all this when there is too much energy inside me like how if you were to shake a soda can and how all the soda comes out like madness I respond in somewhat the same way only difference being that I scream this one loud scream to release the tension. No seriously I m not kidding.   I have done that before. Not really really loud but I have. I dont want the akkas coming and dragging me to a mental asylum.

I would and could go on with my bullshit but I shall refrain. Two reasons. The first one being that I would not wanna freak you out more than you already are and secondly because I m tired and I have soo much to do before I sleep. So yes for today this shall be the end before I come up with another insane crazy chapter of my life and share it with you.

May the heavenly forces be with you!

(Something that my teacher used to say and something I thought might be good enough for a dramatic Tada(!) ending! :) )

A Must Watch!

TED inspires me.

Every single speaker has something extraordinary to put forward.

Well, here is another one that made me smile.

Watch it!

2011- Here you are

So this is it. Another year in the making.

New Beginnings. More experiences. More emotions.More Wrongs.More Rights.More Love.No Hate(ok maybe a little. Just a little).More Life. More sunshine. More smiles. And definitely no tears!

This year I m not going to make any New Years Action Plans. They have always been hopeless( for me) and I never ever follow them so they are out. For life.

What is in, however, is the fact that everyday will be just right. No matter what it is. Good or bad. There will be a smile on my face. Even if it comes after a minute or two. It will be there. The sunshine will always shine on  me and when it happens to be the night well then the stars will shimmie their magic into my life.

So for today and for the enchanting tomorrow I welcome you with a smile on my face.

Happy New Year!

Happy ME = A Perfect World!

Happy me and this world is perfect the way it is.

I figured out one thing recently and that happens to be the fact that when you are happy everything is perfect just the way it is. 

Life to me seems magical when I am happy. 

The winds tell me stories. 

The falling autumn leaves sway me. 

The birds chirping fill me with life and hope and Energy. Like never before!

Yes life is pretty much a fairytale come true when I am happy. Every thing around seems to smile at me. 

So one thing I would like to say is-

Do whatever it takes to make you happy. Dance like an idiot. Sing your heart out.Whatever it is that does it. Do it! 

PS- Yes I know I was supposed to talk about my favorite destinations around the world. It will come. Soon.

For now this is it. Gotta hit the bed.

Ciao!

Click it!

So I have finally decided to become a photographer. Well, not professionally but sort of at a hobby level only.

I figured that  while I m in Manipal I might just as well go behind the lens and capture the beauty of nature.

Manipal is quite a place to be when you want to be around the nature and MU's campus is impressive too.

So from next sem this place right here will be home to beautiful pictures! :)

I have a collection of photos that I started collecting a few months back. Started with joblessness and now its actually become a habit.  At first the joblessness was only confined to the genre of  dance. Now the collection comprises of   black and white photos of all sorts of things. 

As beautiful as the colors can make a photograph to be, after looking at black and white photos I felt that sometimes the color takes away a story the photograph has to tell. It somehow is too much to process with all the colors around. However with only two colors it just makes it easier to focus on the little details .My album  is a collection of photos that basically caught my attention the moment I saw them. I like to believe they say more than 1000 words.

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=298355&id=512376182&l=9c86eb7aa3

Here it is. Have a look. Once again I clarify that these photos are not mine. These are random photos that I have collected from the internet.. 

Anyhow I m off for today.

Oh oh Oh and if all goes as planned(which hardly ever does. but. If it does) I shall talk about my love for travel in the next post. About my favorite destinations across the world that I would love to visit!

Ciao.

Rules. Matter much?

I wanna talk about something that connects all of us. Society.

How important is it for the society to guide you to do something. I would even go on to say that society is pretty much the one who decides what should be done and how it should be done. Why? 

I just finished reading Daughters of Arabia. Yet again it baffles me how we have set these rules that should be followed in order to have "the" life. Who decides what is to be done? Who gives someone that authority to be the one to decide. I have heard  that Jean Sason exaggerated a lot of things. Maybe she did. Things need to be dramatic to catch our attention. She wanted to sell a story after all. But I would still say that the essence of the book is very real. Maybe not every single thing happened but I m very sure that things like these do happen.I know they do. I do not even want to talk about what all I read. Its disturbing to say the least but its not something that I have not heard before. The sooner you get used to the prejudices in this world the easier it is to move on in life and accept it. But really is that what we should be doing? Being okay with it or should we fight it? And if we should then for how long do fight? Specially when you are the only one fighting it. .

Is it really that necessary to have these rules? These rules that dictate the way you live. When did that happen? Tracing back to history its been happening since life began. .Why did it happen? The need to be powerful maybe. The need to be acknowledged. Its sad to see that whenever in the times before when  all this began a very insecure man started it. The need for others to follow something you are doing to assert that its right just shows how hollow the person was despite being the leader.Of sorts. When did someone become better and more superior than the other? Really! And its not just in part of the world that it happens, it happens everywhere in the world. Only the degrees vary.

When did it become mandatory for everyone to follow a certain set of notions that a certain set of people believed in. Its sad how something like this loosely led to the formation of a society and hence maybe even a whole religion all by itself. Having a society is important and necessary. It being mandatory is not. Having a society should ease everyone's life and not restrict it.

But oh well, what can we do? One person cannot be the change but he can surely be the one to start it. For me a start is good enough. 

Hmm... So I think I m done for today with the big talk. However I have come up with something and that happens to go like this- Next time whenever you look at someone and find someone doing something that you would not do, step back and tell yourself that it is okay for someone to be different and to think differently even if he is the only one doing it. Let people be the way they want to be. Just as you deserve the right to do whatever you want to the other person does too.

Soo my BIG mantra for now and for ever is : Live and let live!

PS: Now that I m done with this I need my dose of fiction. Too much of reality just quietens me.Makes me sober. Not good. I need the chirpy me around me. Not too fond of silence! Soo I shall begin with my next one which happens to be The God of Small Things. I m so pathetic. I remember first seeing the book in my English class when we had to analyse some part of it. Back then it just never managed to grab my attention and quite honestly I did not understand much either but now I m in love with the book and now it all makes so much sense! 

For an entire(yes a complete freaking!) semester I have not been able to go beyond 50 something pages. It just gets too heavy and then I sit there adoring and analyzing and thinking of all the different things that it could imply. The words are soo vivid. It takes me to a different world.Hopeless I am. Yes I know. Sooo finally I will once and for all  and for all the love I have for the words I shall start the book and Finish it. 

Later!

Whats next? Photo-blogging's next!

Home home home it is!

So I m back home again! It feels soo good to be home. It makes the cranky me a very calm me. However this time round I wont be home for long. Sadness. Yes I know.

Holiday is too short!

Hmm... So I m thinking that if everything goes well and I get a camera this time and by that I mean the Cannon I want I will start photo blogging. I have always wanted to. Manipal is a pretty place and I figured that photos are one way to record the moments in your life that matter. I mean you remember the important ones but somewhere down the line you do tend to forget some and even though I m not really all that into Manipal the place has taught me a lot and made me a stronger person. It has given me wisdom. So I would wanna remember it nevertheless.

So yes hopefully next blog will be colorful and expressive.  I shall catch the candid moments of my life and put it up!

Feeling sleepy. And I m tired. Soo. .
Nighty nite it is!

Finally. It dawns on me.

So finally I admit that I have been wrong!

I have just realized that I have been going horribly wrong in this one thing in my life and it has to stop.
Thinking. Being Passive. When I said I lay there gazing at the ceiling and staring out into the universe for hours. I literally meant it!

All this while I had been patronizing myself about this "oh so intelligent and ever so right philosophical" habit of mine. Finally the words are ready to come out of my mouth. Its not right. Its not ok to just lay there and think and then think some more. Its not. What it leads to ladies and gentlemen is Passivity. This awful word seems very profound at first, Like dude! I m coming up with this kick ass theory of mine which will charm the world and take it by storm. It does not. Thinking only shows you the path. It does not take you there! Actions do.

And I do not mean to say that you should not think. Of course you should! Hence the difference between humans and machines comes into picture. To have a perspective is very important. To have a stand on something is even more important. That is what sets us apart from others.  However too much of passivity leads to nothing. I would even go on to say that Passivity is not good at all.

I realized that finally at the end of a whole freaking semester! All I ever did was procrastinate and trust me it lead to a cranky me! A thought is as good as nothing unless you do something with it. You need to keep your mind and body occupied with something or the other or else it leads to building castles in the air; something that I did very often this semester. Not Good!

So here is the solution! Since I have now decided to go public about it (hopefully this is something that should help me stay on the highway and not run off it) I will at all times find myself something to do. Even if it means joining some crappy dance class which does not expand my range, I shall still do it because at the end of the day I will have DONE something and not just thought about it. And how I thought that if we just kept working and working and doing and doing where does the time come to introspect?! Well here is the answer. Our mind is one intelligent thing. It can multi task. And this is where our subconscious mind comes into the picture. It records things as we live each day. All the little things that matter to us, the little things that catch our attention. So really we might not realize but it is getting archived. Every little detail. And this is when our sixth sense comes into the picture. The moment we are not sure and that feeling inside that helps us make a decision. Yep that right there is our sixth sense which derives its conclusions from the subconscious mind.

I mean really?! Did I not know this already?! I did. However I chose not to see it. Its funny how our comfort zone can blind us and teach us to rationalize our behavior so fiercely. But I guess all's well that ends well. But wait! It aint the end. No way. This is only the beginning!. .  :)

I know its gonna take sometime to get over this habit. But then the journey of realization has been embarked. Slow and steady be it but it will go on.

So again I have chosen a wrong time to blog about the right things! Its late and I have to be up early. Soo I shall be off now.
I shall sleep and hope that tomorrow will be a day of productivity! It better be. It needs to be.


PS: I have a feeling I am gonna wake up in the morning and say to myself " Like why Bulbul! why did you have to spoil the mood of the post by putting  this stupid(yet cute!) photo!?!" and for that I d say "Oh come on for crying out loud I am a Drama Queen. Things need to be light around here. Things need to be funny"


Hmm..I wonder if its anywhere near the vicinity of being proclaimed as lame!? Oh well whatever(!)
I think I can live one day of my life for being lame for all I care!


Signing off for today!
Watch out for the next post. If it turns out the way I am hoping it does the next post will be one hell of a read!
Night!

It is what it is.

I wonder if it was the light around the darkness that fooled me of the better good to come. . .

Things happen. People disappear. And every time one does it kills a little part of me.
I have lost many this semester. Friend. Acquaintance. Loved one

Each time its not the closeness of the relationship that weakens me after they depart it is the non-existence of a person in a matter of a few moments that haunts me. The ability of a person's existence to perish almost instantly is what scares me. A few seconds run through your fingers like quick sand and make their existence mythical.

I wish things did not have to be this way. I wish one little mistake did not have to cost someone their life. I wish I could wake up the next morning and find that everything is back to the way it would have been had the destiny not been treacherous.

I close my eyes.

I wake up.

I breathe in another day. .


. . Nothing has changed. The disparity of yesterday still  lurks in the existence of today.